Birthday Blues

Birthday Blues

I always thought it was just me, but Birthday Blues is apparently, a thing. I just turned 25 today, and, its depressing. I’m usually an extremely optimistic person, and some times, even border-line irrational. But, I get really sad around my birthday. I’m getting old too fast. I want to do so much, but I’m running out of time! One less year to live 😞

And its not a 20s thing. I have never been excited about birthdays. Its probably because my family never had a tradition of celebrating birthdays. Somebody in my ancestral family passed away on his bday, and hence we were not allowed to get gifts or cut cake. Not that I never got gifts, its just that bdays were not an excuse. In fact, my parents would fulfil my wishes before I even asked for it.

As a child, I’d wear new clothes, treat my friends at the local joint and everybody would wish me β€œHappy Birthday!”. But, I never felt excited. I always wondered what are we celebrating? Life? We should be celebrating life everyday!

Anyways, I was feeling sad again and hence thought this rant + a breakdown of 24 will make me feel better:

So, how was 24?

  • Learnt Surfing πŸ„πŸ½
  • Climbed Bhramatal Summit(that’s 2 πŸ”οΈs now)
  • Learnt Skipping
  • Lost about 8kgs πŸƒπŸ»
  • Learnt Hatha Yoga 🧘🏻
  • Started writing ✍🏼
  • Fell in love, then fell out of love
  • Got cancelled on twitter
  • Tried shrooms πŸ„
  • Quit intoxication
  • Built a deeper understanding of myself
  • Moved to Bangalore πŸ§‘πŸ»β€πŸ’»
  • Solo trip(in Goa) πŸ–οΈ

What’s up in 25?

  • I want to grow more muscle/strength πŸ’ͺ🏽
  • more πŸ’Έ
  • Write more
  • Summer trek
  • Laugh more
  • Visit another country 🌍
  • Hang out around builders, creators and high energy people

Not sure how this year will turn out, but I’m going to give it my best shot.

Happy birthday to me!