Birthday Blues

I always thought it was just me, but Birthday Blues is apparently, a thing. I just turned 25 today, and, its depressing. I’m usually an extremely optimistic person, and some times, even border-line irrational. But, I get really sad around my birthday. I’m getting old too fast. I want to do so much, but I’m running out of time! One less year to live 😞

And its not a 20s thing. I have never been excited about birthdays. Its probably because my family never had a tradition of celebrating birthdays. Somebody in my ancestral family passed away on his bday, and hence we were not allowed to get gifts or cut cake. Not that I never got gifts, its just that bdays were not an excuse. In fact, my parents would fulfil my wishes before I even asked for it.

As a child, I’d wear new clothes, treat my friends at the local joint and everybody would wish me “Happy Birthday!”. But, I never felt excited. I always wondered what are we celebrating? Life? We should be celebrating life everyday!

Anyways, I was feeling sad again and hence thought this rant + a breakdown of 24 will make me feel better:

So, how was 24?

• Learnt Surfing 🏄🏽
• Climbed Bhramatal Summit(that’s 2 🏔️s now)
• Learnt Skipping
• Lost about 8kgs 🏃🏻
• Learnt Hatha Yoga 🧘🏻
• Started writing ✍🏼
• Fell in love, then fell out of love
• Got cancelled on twitter
• Tried shrooms 🍄
• Quit intoxication
• Built a deeper understanding of myself
• Moved to Bangalore 🧑🏻‍💻
• Solo trip(in Goa) 🏖️

What’s up in 25?

• I want to grow more muscle/strength 💪🏽
• more 💸
• Write more
• Summer trek
• Laugh more
• Visit another country 🌍
• Hang out around builders, creators and high energy people

Not sure how this year will turn out, but I’m going to give it my best shot.

Happy birthday to me!